Hamad "Jefferson" Hayat (former Muslim)
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[edit] Testimony of Leaving Islam
Dear Friends,
I go by the name of Hanyv. I have lived in Bahrain my entire life. Although coming originally from Baluchistan. I have come from a family heavily influenced by socialists if not atheists. Regardless, since my father was no bright man in terms of books and thoughts, he had sent me to the local Quran centre to recite and get educated in Islamic thought after school hours. That was in 1993. I was six years old when the brainwashing began. I turned out to be a hardcore Wahaabi with one of those Arabic dresses and a pretty long beard for a teenager. Then came the day that I met my mentor. A smart woman who taught me for my first semester in state run university. She raised some ideas and basically I grew at that moment. I began to read books other than Islamic ones. The day came where this Arab Muslim society found our little “Heretic” gathering. I went through depression, still clinging on to what I believe in. Her last words before she left the country were that I can remain a centrist; either I become a fundamentalist or a liberal. I went through more depression. I asked Allah for assistance but got no response. I began to pray and fast and all those things in order to save my spirit and soul but it was no use. Then I knew that Islam was not cut out for me. My reason was that it’s not spiritual enough. But once I let go of it, I felt so liberated and carefree. I could read things I couldn’t read before like Nietzsche and fathers and sons and many other books. I knew I was a skeptic and I loved it. Of course since I was very spiritual, I had to figure out that dilemma so I did a lot of reading on Nihilism and realized they are all truths - but none of them are actually are.
Of course I was pretty scared to come out with it in the open. People don’t like nihilists like they used to. But look at me now. My family is proud of me, my father apologized for his mistakes. We live in the center of a Wahabi neighborhood, yet they know we can easily show them their lies so they don’t approach us. Also I began a blog and market it in University and in my own studies English Literature and American Studies. As you suspect I am infamous now. So infamous in fact, that I am named the Satan of S-17. S-17 being the number of my collage’s building. Well there you go I hope we don’t get stoned to death or something but until then “For Denmark, We’ll boycott the prophet”
Cheers
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